i reali nid u to come back....

its been a long time i din blog around... yesterday was the worst day of my life...Jimmy juz said the word "stop" fr our relationship.... dats d killing word fr me... i lost a guy who i loved da most in my life, a guy who i wanted to b my husband... he said i'm giving him pressure n he nid a break as he's tired.. i reali dun mean to pressure him... i reali dun wan such ending... is hurting me very much... he's now ignoring my calls n msgs... he said if v hv fate v'll b back together... but d prob is i dun believe in fate..all dis yrs, fate has nvr been at my side b4... i couldn't rely on it... but i've already tried my best to make him change his mind but failed.. i reali can't leave without u.. i dun even noe wad i'm doing... i feel no energy at all, no smile, very unhappy... all da while i share everythin wif u but now, if i gt prob i can oni keep all in my heart...now i oni hope u can come back to me... i reali wan u to come back.. i nid u... i nid u...but u wont noe how much i nid u....frm now on, my life is colorless.. i can oni c black n white, feel pain.. is oni pain dat i can feel... wad i drink is much more bitter den herbal tea... i reali planned to marry u after 7 yrs... i even think for d names of our childrens.. you said i oni noe how to argue, i'm reali sorry.. i reali dun wan it to happen.. i reali wana build a family wif u... if i agree to marry u, i wil nvr think of divorce.. now i lose everythin.. i hate myself for being such emotional... if god can gv me another chance to b wif u i willing to cut short my life...darling, i juz wan2 tell u i feel very xing fu not xin ku wif u.. in 4 yrs i nvr feel xin ku at all.. i love u...